i dont mind political stances or whatnot, i just mind blatant ‘scumpaint’ and absolutely hate it for various reasons one being that i try not to engage in it myself. its not really the main reason i would say although i do feel like its damaged my relationship with two people whom i have not directly argued with simply because i argued with their common friend. youre right its dumb as hell of me to give as much of a fuck as i do but thats just how it is.
the real reasons are much deeper than politics and its something that some people have actually referenced multiple times, and is not political in nature. id rather not beat a dead horse as i feel ive said a LOT on whats bothered me and honestly while i did fuck up, i feel like when i fucked up, there wasnt anyone there to have my back and im very resentful over that. especially since i almsot got ‘ordered’ to act a certain way that i didnt agree with.